A Poem

Loneliness engulfs me

A soaring thought of fear

Uncertainty and longevity

Are my worst fears

I’m not asking for anything

Which I know u cannot do

Because I know you would do anything for me

If you could ever do

I know that you love me

And I know that love is deep

that is my only solace

In times as tough as these

I feel lost and lonely

And the tunnel seems so dark

Would I ever see the light?

Hope seems so dull and dark

I’m a weak human

Struggling to see it through

Applying reason and logic

To help us get through

I don’t say I’m right

Nor do I say you are wrong

Everything seems against us

Leaving us helpless and worn

I just want us to be happy

Whether we are far or close

Because our souls are bound by a love

That is true and pure

I miss u a lot

And my pain runs deep

Each time I remember you

Tears trickle down my cheek

I know that u suffer more

Being all alone there

Hopes seems so shattered

When we are so far

I pray to god to help us

To see this through

To unite our hearts forever

And help us fight through

Allah is our only hope

Our only light and strength

Forgive me my lord

When I ’m feeble and complain

I promise to turn back to you

With all my strength and courage

Please help us my lord

To be happy and unconstrained

My Guiding Light

The going is getting tougher, new challenges and obstacles cloud my way. At times the stress overwhelms my soul. At these testing times I appease myself by reassuring myself that inshallah with Allah’s grace and rahma everything will be fine. Allah swt has always shown me the way through happiness and pain, inshallah he will bless me with the strength to conquer all mountains.

I feel I need to return back to Allah and also ponder over the fact that it was always between me and my lord and whatever others might do to is immaterial and insignificant. It’s time I woke up and stopped being emotional, its prudence that I need to hold high amidst these challenges. Acting weak or being emotional, it is sure not the way to success. Some decisions are hard to make, but times are such that I need to make them placing my complete trust in the one who created me. My Allah is my strength, source of all wisdom, source of peace and tranquillity, My Guiding Light! Ya Allah, please help me see through these tough times, to spend each and every moment of my life in your way.

~Contemporary Marital Advice~

A contemporary woman advised her daughter saying:

You are about to enter a new life; different from the one you grew up in, a life in which you will not have your father, mother nor your brothers and sisters. You will become the wife of a man who wants nobody to share you with him, even your closest relative. 

You should be to him like a wife and a mother; make him feel that you are everything in his life. You should keep in mind that a man is like a big child; the slightest sweet word can make him happy. Never make him feel that by marrying you, you will lose your family and relatives, because he has left his family as well for you. Normally, a woman longs for her family's affection and home, in which she grew up. However, she should get used to her new life and her husband who is her children's father and support. My daughter, this is your life and future, the new family, which you and your husband will form. I do not ask you to forget your mother, father and brothers and sisters because they will never forget you. All I want from you is that you love and live with your husband and feel happy with him.

~Marital Advice~

Umamah Bint al-Harith at-Tghlibiyyah was among the esteemed ladies in Arabia. She had some renowned and wise ethics and advice. When her daughter, Iyas Bint Awf, got married to the King of Kindah, al-Harith Ibn Arnru', and was ready to go to her new life, she gave her some valuable advice.

Umamah Bint al-Harith told her daughter: "Oh my daughter, if one ignores advice because of one's moral values or noble descent I will not bother to advise you, but it is a reminder for the rational and a warning to a negligent. oh daughter, if a woman could dispense with a husband because of her father's wealth, I would be the richest of all people, but we were created for men as they were created for us. Oh daughter, you are now going to leave the house in which you were brought up and move to a new nest which you do not know and a husband you are not familiar with. Your husband has control over you now, so you should be to him like a slave girl and he will become your slave. You should bear in mind ten characteristics and your husband will be yours forever.

First and second: Companionship with satisfaction and obedience, because there is happiness of the heart in contentment and pleasure of the Lord.

Third and fourth: never do anything which annoys him and always put on a nice scent for him. You should know my daughter that Kuhl (antimony powder used both as decoration and a medicine for the eyes) is the most excellent beauty that exists and that water is the best thing for purity. 

Fifth and sixth: never ignore his hunger and spoil his sleep. 

Seventh and eighth: Looking after his house, money and children.

Ninth and tenth: never disclose his secrets nor disobey his orders, because if you disclose his secrets you will be unable to regain his trust and if you disobey him you will arouse his anger. More than that, never show delight at his misery, nor sadness at his joy, because the former shows lack of consideration for your husband and the latter disrespect.

And the more you respect him the more he will be kind to you, and the more you agree with him the longer he will remain with you. You should know my daughter that you will not be able to do that unless you prefer his pleasure to yours and his desires to yours in what you love and hate. I ask Allah to guide you and grant you happiness. And Allah be with you.

 

Repenting !!!

I felt the pain deep within
A pain so deep and relentless indeed
The pain of sin so extreme
My heart bled with remorse defying my peace

At times my lord it was habit not intent
But my heartfelt remorse is so intense
Would you punish me or banish me for my neglect
It’s in your mercy my lord that I depend

Times are tough and evil dominates
Every day is a struggle with forces intense
Take it or leave it, is the order of the day
I try to carry on, amidst the pain

At times I’m choice less
At times I’m weak
I feel that I’m lost
Broke and weak

I kneel down before you
Seeking your help
Please forgive me my lord
When I’m feeble and weak

I’ll strive to be obedient
I’ll strive to be strong
I‘ll strive to be a martyr
In a world that’s rough and torn

Please help me my lord
To be sinless and strong
Please forgive me my lord
When I err and I’m wrong

You are my only hope
In a world that’s gloomy and dark
The most merciful and compassionate
Greatest of All!!!